This Is For Me

I slept all night thanks to Nyquil, and today I just feel numb. Numb to everything. I actually ate lunch. Yaayyyy...

I don't know what to do with myself. I keep checking my phone, out of habit, to see if he's texted me. Every time I do and there is nothing there I get a stab of pain again. I can't think about it or a break down, but I'm getting better about not thinking about it. I try not thinking about what I know and he won't tell me too.. That just makes it worse. I can't believe he did it. I just can't.

Anyways, I overslept this morning and missed a test, so I have that to retake sometime.. I can't believe my luck that it turned out to be open book. Hah. Now I just have another test tomorrow, but this one I have studied for. SO I'm gonna start studying and watch Law and Order SVU.

Night.