This Is For Me

Well I'm back. Back to reality. The reality that I can't get over this. The reality that he is here and we haven't spoken. I hate this. I really really hate this. Everything reminds me of him. I can't listen to the radio, nor my iPod. Too many things just pop into my head. I'm watching Family Guy and THAT reminds me of him... It's so lame. I just feel like I will never be the same again. I almost wish he had just died. Or I had. It would be so much easier if I just died. Why do I feel this way? I'm not suicidal.. I'm not there. I just wish things were easier, and death would certainly make things easier. I know I have everything to look forward too, I just can't see it without him in it. I know, I'm depressing.

I'll just go back to studying for Child Bearing and Child Rearing. Ohhhhh Nursing School how I loathe thee.