Timo sent my another picture he took of Conor and I over the summer last year. I think that by this time we were at his house. I think this is my favorite one. :) The only sad part is that Con recently cut off all his hair and mine is twice as long as it is there.. haha. I don't care though, I LOVE this picture!
Natalie.
Why is it that Mom's can make you feel better just by talking to you?? =] I'm almost 20 and I'm just now realizing how much I love and appreciate my Mom. She's the most amazing woman in the world. How could I have ever treated such a woman so badly? I didn't even need to go into details, just talking to her made me feel better. I love my Mom.
Natalie
I had the most amazing Spring Break, and only because I didn't do a dang thing! I got to hang out with Con and my family the whole time. When I'm home it's as if all the time that's been between us hasn't happened at all. I love it. He's so perfect for me. All of this just keeps getting harder though. I don't know if it's just starting to wear me out or what, but every time I have to say goodbye to him it keeps getting harder. Every time I get back to school I get depressed. For the first day I'm fine, but then that night, when it's quiet and everyone is catching up, I start to miss him and get sad. Then he's all I can think about and it gets worse. I hate this feeling. I want to be with him, to be near him. To hold him every night. I know that in a week I'll be fine again, but I just feel so crappy now. I want my boy back. I want to be with him again.
Natalie
1. He is so talented.. way more than I EVER was.
2. He tells me I'm beautiful in every way.
3. He is scared of getting married.
4. I'm not sure that I could live without him anymore.
5. He is so sure of everything.
6. He understands me like no one else on this whole planet.
7. He pushes me to do more than what I think is sufficient.
8. He would suffer through anything for me.. silently.
9. I have to make the hard decisions because he's too nice sometimes.
10. When he does something, he does it completely, and is the best at it.
I know that most of these silly blogs end up being about him, but I just can't put him out of my mind. He is always there. Always with me. I think that's how I know we are meant to be. I found a song today that I want to be played at my wedding. It's so cute. It's perfect.
Until You, by Dave Barnes.
Let's just take our time
There's nothing else to do
What better way to spend the night
Than wasting it with you
The moon has won the war
The daylight waits to end
Stay here by my side
We'll watch the struggle start again
I need you now and forever
So stay right here with me
Don't ever leave
Love was kept from me like a secret
And I swore that I was through
Until you, until you
The city settles down
I watch you as you sleep
There's a silent celebration for
Every breath you breathe
Now this all makes sense
With you as company
I left all I knew and found
A better part of me, yeah
The time it took to find you
I would
Wait again my baby
The feelings that
I feel with you, yeah
until you until you until you
man, these last few weeks have just BLAZED by.. i was just home for christmas, and now it's about to be spring break! Con has come up to HSU a few times in the past few weeks. =] He's making the rounds for his college auditions. He stopped by last weekend twice! =] i was very excited. his little conjugal visit went very well. ;-p hahahah. but really. he'll be down again this upcoming wednesday.. then i'll be heading home on friday!! sooo exciting. i'm a little bummed that our spring break's aren't the same, but that's still not terrible. we'll have the evenings, so it'll be fun. =] yesss, and the NIGHTS. =D hahah. ohh i'm in such a good mood because i'm talking and thinking about these things. =]
weeelllll, my laptop is about to die and i'm going to eat a bww with hay in a few mins, sooo i'm gonna go ahead and wrap this up.. hahahaha. my dirty mind!
lol, byeeee.
the most amazing boy ever. I had an amazing Valentines Day. He cooked for me! =] Ummm and now he's coming to see me! =D
I just had to tell the world how amazing he is. I love my boy.
I'm dying here! I really can't go on like this... I feel so depressed, and I know it's only because I haven't been home for so long. I miss Conor, I miss my family, I'm sick of school.. and I'm tired. Con and I keep arguing over silly little things, things that make no sense to argue about when I'm 300 miles away. I'm biting his head off for no reason. I hate it. I hate that I'm acting this way. To top it all off, I'm about to start my period.. just in time for Valentines Day, lovely... Everything is going WRONG!
But, I guess that's what comes with trying to keep up a long distance relationship, I don't know.. I know that I love him, and I'm not going to give up, I won't. I love him way too much for that. He IS my future. I can't wait until we are together all day, every day. I really know that all of these problems will slip away. (probably to be replaced with brand new problems, but still) We're going to make it.. We are in this for the long haul. For forever.
I'm just being a teenager for the last year I can still use it as an excuse for my behavior.. hahaha!
=]
Natalie