I had the most amazing Spring Break, and only because I didn't do a dang thing! I got to hang out with Con and my family the whole time. When I'm home it's as if all the time that's been between us hasn't happened at all. I love it. He's so perfect for me. All of this just keeps getting harder though. I don't know if it's just starting to wear me out or what, but every time I have to say goodbye to him it keeps getting harder. Every time I get back to school I get depressed. For the first day I'm fine, but then that night, when it's quiet and everyone is catching up, I start to miss him and get sad. Then he's all I can think about and it gets worse. I hate this feeling. I want to be with him, to be near him. To hold him every night. I know that in a week I'll be fine again, but I just feel so crappy now. I want my boy back. I want to be with him again.
Natalie
1. He is so talented.. way more than I EVER was.
2. He tells me I'm beautiful in every way.
3. He is scared of getting married.
4. I'm not sure that I could live without him anymore.
5. He is so sure of everything.
6. He understands me like no one else on this whole planet.
7. He pushes me to do more than what I think is sufficient.
8. He would suffer through anything for me.. silently.
9. I have to make the hard decisions because he's too nice sometimes.
10. When he does something, he does it completely, and is the best at it.
I know that most of these silly blogs end up being about him, but I just can't put him out of my mind. He is always there. Always with me. I think that's how I know we are meant to be. I found a song today that I want to be played at my wedding. It's so cute. It's perfect.
Until You, by Dave Barnes.
Let's just take our time
There's nothing else to do
What better way to spend the night
Than wasting it with you
The moon has won the war
The daylight waits to end
Stay here by my side
We'll watch the struggle start again
I need you now and forever
So stay right here with me
Don't ever leave
Love was kept from me like a secret
And I swore that I was through
Until you, until you
The city settles down
I watch you as you sleep
There's a silent celebration for
Every breath you breathe
Now this all makes sense
With you as company
I left all I knew and found
A better part of me, yeah
The time it took to find you
I would
Wait again my baby
The feelings that
I feel with you, yeah
until you until you until you