So, I've just realized how much I hate technology...
Through Facebook, and by nothing else, have I just learned that an old boyfriend is engaged.. I don't know what to think, much less feel. When I read that, all the blood ran out of my face. My heart stopped. I don't have any feelings for him anymore, I really don't, but he was always the "perfect guy" I used to compare all other guys to. He was MINE. I was his first girlfriend, he my first real boyfriend... my first true love. My heart is aching, and I have no idea why. I feel so... taken advantage of. Facebook ruined it. It's so impersonal. I wish he would have told me. I wish he would have thought to, even though it's none of my business. I feel hurt. This is so terrible. I KNOW he will be happy with her.. he has been for the last year. Has it really only been two years since we dated? This is just so odd. I feel like crying and then I think that that's no way for me to behave! I really am about to cry.
There are no words for the way I am feeling. My heart is being ripped apart and I don't even know why.