I THOUGHT I SHOULD POST MY GRADES SO FAR!
math - 64
chem - 82
sociology - 84
new testament - 66
BOOOOO I SUCKKK!!!! =[
so, i went home this weekend. it was A MAZING. =] Hayley came with me, but she didn't STAY with me. Her dad was working the state fair so she stayed with him. weeeelllll...
FRIDAY-
As soon as we got to my house, Con came over! I was VERY excited, lemme tell ya. I love that boy. Hayley could tell i was getting anxious.. lol. Then Hay's dad came to pick her up and He met my family and Conor.. that was fun. Conor left to go the football game and I had dinner with Hay and her dad. I showed them some of my home-town.. it was fun. Not much really happened till later. After the game was over and Con was home, I went over to his house and hot tubbed for a few hours.. that was REALLY nice. =] haha. then laterrrr he came over to my house. hahhaa. even more =]
SATURDAY-
I slept in, unlike Con, who had to be in Mesquite at 8am.. ugh! lol. Then, when i FINALLY woke up, I did some errands with my mom and stuff.. nothing fun. Con came over later and we ended up watching a HOUSE marathon. ahhaha. we LOVE that show!! Around 8ish we went to dinner! Because I wasn't home for my birthday, we went to Honusho.. an AMAZING japanese sushi bar- place. It was soooo yummy! After dinner we went to Tom Thumb and bought brownie mix and Icing! =] We made brownies and watched tv at my house. When he finally went home, it was midnightish? BUTTTT he came over later too. =] That was the night of a great FIRST for me. more =] (teehee)
SUNDAY -
Conor was coming with us to church, so we skipped sunday school.. I had some extra time to get ready. LOL notttt. Conor came over. HAHAH I was so sure we were going to burst into flames as we walked through the doors of my church. ahahhaha. Then, after the service we had lunch at Pappadeaux! I missed my friends there!!! I had calamari and Aligator.. and some of my mom's.. aahahha. =]
Hayley was dropped off around 3ish and we left at about 4.
Anyways. Its only Tuesday and I miss Conor already. Thats so stupid, but I still miss him. I love that boy, I really do. AND not just because of the fun we have... even though thats great too. hahaha. =] (yeaaahhhh, I'm going to hell!) I can't wait for my next visit home!!!
SO NOW I HAVE TO GO TO BED.. I'M SLEEPY. I'M GOING TO FAIL MATH AND I DON'T CARE. college sucks.. not really, just MATH! =/
nighty night! love, natalie.
Blahhhh. I'm so exhausted, and I feel as if I've done nothing all day.. other than class, I mean.
I have a big Chemistry test tomorrow and I'm SO unprepared.. I'm trying to study, but I just can't seem to focus. It's terrible. For the first time in who knows how long I actually need to STUDY for a class and I can't do it.. This computer is aiding in my procrastination, but I can't seem to pull myself away. It's deffinately evident that my grades so far in college are slipping. In math my first test grade was a 64 and in New Testament it was a 66! When my grades go home my parents are going to KILL me. I've always been a straight A student.. WITH NO NEED TO STUDY! -_- I feel like i was just lied to for my first 12 years of school.. I WAS good at this, but not anymore!
Blah. This is just me complaining.. I feel like a child. I can handle this, or at least, I thought i would be able to. Ugh. I really should just put this away and try to study again. Everything is all laid out on my bed already, I just have to set my mind to it and go. I just hope that this is enough.. I hope I will do well. Lord knows that I'm trying.. I really am. I just didn't expect College to be THIS hard. I thought it would be ok..
Ok. I'm going this time. Pray for me!!!
Oh my goodness... i was a great student in high school... not anymore. college is SERIOUSLY kicking my butt. i have two major tests this week; chemistry and sociology. ugh. i feel like all i do is study and sleep.. and go to class, of course. NOTHING is paying off though. i work so hard, and what do i have to show? NOTHING. there are no quiz grades or homework.. each class is based on these tests! its sooo unfair. i mean, i'm a good test-taker, but daaannnggg. i'm sick of just studying all the time. its getting ridiculous!
OHHHH. fun stuff. conor and i got our web cams to work! thats funnn. =] i was in the library when it started working and there conor was... blasting out jazz sax. IN THE LIBRARY. hahahah. it was great. oh well. -_-
ps, that last post said some mean things about con, and i just want to rectify that. he was not really being a jerk, i was just being emotional. ahhaha. i tend to get like that sometimes... i'm a girrrlllll. =/ its a terrible excuse, i know..
anyways. i have to be up and at Pilates at 8 am, so i'm gonna head off to bed!
hahah. niiighttt.
i can't stop thinking about next weekend.. i'm coming home for you. for you. i know that you're busy and have plans, but i'm coming home FOR YOU. not for my family, not for my "friends"... for you. i can't stand it that i feel like you don't care. yesss, i know i'm exaggerating, but i'm a girl. i like to be reassured you still want me. tonight you made me sad. you seemed like you wanted nothing more than to stop talking to me so you could go about your business. i hate that.
maybe you just love me for the sex.
weeellllll. this has been such an interesting time for me!
first off, school is AMAZING. i love everything here. i mean it, everything. my roommate is a little odd at times, but i honestly wouldn't change a thing. i've met a TON of new people and they are all exactly the right type of people. i met a girl named Hayley and she's become my new best friend.
its weird just how much we get along! haha, but i really love her. i don't know what i'd do without her. there are sooo many people that i've become close with. there are a few guys who are always there, any time i need something, and thats great too! my life here couldn't be any better... unless Conor was here.
i guess thats my next topic, Conor. at first i thought i was going to be missing out coming here with a boyfriend from home.. but i'm not. i miss him so much, and i can't wait to tell him about all thats going on in my life. we are closer now than when we spent everyday together.. when i come home its like heaven. the last time i was home we spent the entire weekend together. he came over saturday night and spent the night with me. it was great. we fell asleep together and i woke up in his arms.. all the love i feel for him emotionally we have now expressed physically. i love it. i love that i can just be myself with him! i can't believe how much i love him. i was so worried that i would be missing out of college experiences that i lost sight of the fact that i might MARRY this guy one day... there is NOTHING more important than Love. and i love him. i love him with my whole heart.
saying that, i have to mention just how frustrating it is though to only be able to come home every three weeks.. i miss Conor. i feel badly, but He's the reason i come home. i love my family, but its not the same type of love. its as if he comes before them now, almost. i know that if we can hold it together for just one more year we'll be fine.
oh, i need a job sooo badly! i hate hate hate asking money from my parents.. it bothers me so much. i hate it that i had so much money in my bank account and i blew it just because i was stubborn and wanted to try and pay for as much as i could for school stuff.. now i'm completely broke! hahahahaha. ughhh, it stinks.
mmkaayyy. welp, i'm gonna wrap this up. (like he had better say - hahahahha) that was just my version of a "thats what she said" joke. haha. but anyways. i'm gonna try and write on here more often. so, until then!!
Natalie. =]