I can feel my ZzQuil kicking in, so I'm going to bed! Goodnight!!!
I'm surrounded by amazing people both in my private life and in public. Work is a blessing of its own with challenges every single day, but ones that enthrall me, body and spirit.
I finally gave in and read Fifty Shades of Grey. What can I say? It reminds me of an "adult" Twilight. Both set in cloudy Washington state, both rich men with secrets they long to share to one hopelessly normal girl. She is swept off her feet with no regard to her safety or sanity. Sheesh. Fifty shades of copy-write. Awful writing, just like Twilight. If it wasn't for the nasty sex the book would have been a blunder in sales. Too bad.
Anyways. I'm off to bed! ;) Fifty Shades will keep me dreaming of my honeymoon only two months away! As if I needed any more to think about on that topic! ;)
Night!
I still am completely infatuated with him, even if he does drive me bananas sometimes... Like today. Hahah. I can, kinda, laugh about it now, but I'm still a little frustrated with him. We are just so different! He's super chill and takes like as a joke or as a game, but I'm so caught up in planning and details. I mean, we work perfectly 99.9% of the time, but man, that other 0.01% killed me today.
Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day. And tonight will get better! Currently school is kinda sucking. I'm taking all of my nursing school classes plus a British literature class. It's been a fun few weeks. I just keep telling myself that it's almost thanksgiving and then the semester will be almost over. I'm so ready for a break. Nursing school is the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. It's really challenging. Not only that but we are all competitive with each other, and that doesn't exactly foster a fun relationship between students. :/
I'm waiting right now on one of my teachers to get out of a meeting so that she can give me a FREE flu shot. I thought it would be nice, but I've been waiting up here for 30 mins... Ugh!
Once again, it's been a while since I've posted anything.. :) I've been having too much fun to post. Heh.
A few months ago I was hopelessly heart broken and trying to get over it any way possible. I finally did get over it the only way I think I could have: I asked God to help me. I prayed every night, "Lord just let me feel happy tomorrow!" and you know what, one morning I did feel happy.
Then the Lord blessed me with an amazing man being interested in me. I was skeptical at first, but then I thought, hey- people always have rebound relationships, right?? Hmm. Well I thought that's all it was at first, but a month or so into talking to that man with no real commitment made me think about him in a serious way. Why weren't we dating? He had been asking himself the same thing, but wasn't sure yet. Being the critical man he is, we had a 3 date trial. If at the end of the 3 dates if we were still interested, we'd date. We admitted halfway though date number 2 that we were silly, and we should date. :) Ever since then I've been a very happy girl. Brent is everything I want and need in a man. He has a passion for Christ like I had before I let the world bring me down with my past relationships. He understands me and heals me in ways that no one has ever done before. He tells me I apologize too much, which is weird because in my past relationships that's all I did. He wants me for me. Every part of me. I'm as interesting and exciting to him as he is to me.. It's amazing. We have had our struggles, but Jesus is the Lord of both our hearts, and we hold each other accountable to him alone.
This is what a real relationship should be like; with God at it's center and a beautiful and pure love surrounding it. I can't believe that it's taken me this long to find. Brent is the man I wish someday I marry. He is everything a true Christian should be.. He makes me one too.
I also got a new job, as a lifeguard in Wylie. The pool is owned and operated by a small church in the area, and I'm excited so far! I get my first paycheck this Monday. :) I also got a new house with my roommies! It's a cute little 2 story house. I am absolutely in love with it. I can't imagine a better place to spend our senior year of college!!
My life is so blessed. I am truly thankful for everything that I have been given. The Lord works in mysterious ways.. As I've found out in the last few months. But I wouldn't trade those months for anything. They have made me a stronger woman and believer. God is good.
After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn...
Veronica A. Shoffstall
I feel like things are going so well for me right now. I'm SO happy, and I'm loving just living my life for the first time in, what feels like, years.
Things are coming more easily for me, and it's happening in every aspect of my life. Sure things are just beginning with Brent and I, and sure, I still have a year left of school.. But I'm actually ENJOYING both school and my new interest in Brent! I like him a lot. We have so much fun together. He is amazing and I really couldn't ask for more.. Clinicals are amazing too! I went to Labor and Delivery yesterday and got to help with three births! Two were vaginal and one was a cesarian. I felt like that was my calling. I loved being with those women at such a challenging and rewarding time in their lives! I sure did pick the right profession to go into. The Lord has blessed me with many strengths that nurses need..
I'm glad I wrote here. It really allows me to clear my head. I have so much to be thankful for in this life, and I know it's all from the Lord.
Natalie